kawaii ruki...love it..im kinda expecting aoiXuru in the future..hehehehe

I am very busy right now..but my friend told me that your fics are good, so I'm looking forward to read them ^^~

Oooh~ Please do read...
*hugs you AANNDD your friend*

Ah you mean Filth in the Beauty?
Yay~ you finally read them?

lol~~ u know.... becoz im curious..
although i said i dun like betraying stuff.. this one (Filth in the Beauty) is awesome! and i luv it >33
waiting for ur Yomenai Kotoba :D

Ahhh..i think...you!! *points* just saved me from absolute boredom >.> my wireless is being a prat...so no internet in room for me...but..no longer will i be bored..cause ive saved most of these..and will read them at about 2am XDDDD

I enjoy reading your fics XDD (sometimes more than once XDDD) and..now..i saved them!!!!

sorry this is random fangirling over you xDDDDD *glomps*

you're the best writer ever!!!!!!!!!

*dies*
Naaaaaaaaaaawwwww~
You're flattering me too much... (>.<)

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oh gawd...
im in love...
with your fanfics.
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I can't describe how much I love your fics.

*sneaks in* Hei^^ Finally, I gathered enough guts to leave you a comment, too. I actually wanted to review each chapter but it got tough because I ended up repeating myself over and over 'cause all of your chapters are just plain great and overall well written. So I decided to drop you one big thingy in hopes it won't squash you XD It actually got so big I had to cut it in two halves >.< Cause I kinda over-exceed the limit of 4300 characters or some such *lol*

First, I loved all of your fics I've read. Your writing style is really amazing and your way of describing feelings in the most different situations really left me with my mouth open most of the time. I was glued to the computer screen while reading and just couldn't stop until I was through with a story. Your way to write is captivating and well, it also was the main reason for me to create a LJ account and try writing some GazettE fictions on my own. I hope I'll be able to become as half as good as you are ^-^ You're a great inspiration and motivation to me, I hope you'll never stop writing this amazing stories of yours.

Guess what, you earned yourself a noisy fangirl now XD I really admire your writing style, the way you are able to describe everything so perfectly and fittingly it always gets me thinking – Yes, this is the way it should be written. It's never too much or too less, it's always just plain... perfect ^^" (Okay, those grammar/spelling thing aside, I don't notice them much anyways because your stories are just too captivating to notice things like that^^ And they aren't many of them, either.) It fits on every edge, the stories always have a smooth flow which just takes you away with it. I rarely read such good fics like yours. Amazing. Plain amazing, I think.

So I thank you really much for sharing your work, I would hate to miss such amazing art pieces, which I think your fictions are, and I'm really glad I got a chance to read them.

The first story of yours I read was Filth in the beauty and this story enraptured me with the very first lines of the first chapter. I fell in love with the way you write almost immediately. And now I'm always patiently waiting for the next chapter of "Yomenai Kotoba" 'cause I fell in love with that story, too ^-^ It's such a successful sequel to "Filth in the beauty" *~* Gotta love you for making one *huggles you breathless* XD

You managed do capture the boys' personalities so perfectly *~* You don't happen to know them personally, do you? XDD It really never cease to amaze me how well you describe them *~*

When you write about them, one can literally feel those little sparkles between them, thanks to your amazing writing style ^-^ Especially in moments where they get intimate (oooh, all those little smex scenes between Aoi and Ruki... *~* Pure love *sniffs*) or emotional like the moment Uruha walked in on Aoi and Ruki kissing in the bathroom or when Reita held this amazing speech of his, scolding Uruha for that shocking thing he did to Ruki (dare I say rape?) when they were outside the hospital.

And of course the story with the Cranes... It was the cutest thing ever, really, and it felt so real while I was reading. I guess there is a lot of personal experience in your fics and some situations you described were a great help for me to understand one thing or another about a relationship, you know^^ So your fics kinda influenced my life on some points, especially the Filth in the Beauty one where a cheat on a partner, which is so wrong, suddenly was being showed from the other side, making it appear so right at the same time. Thank you really much for writing it the way you did, I absolutely loved it.

*is catatonic*

... Okay...
The last thing I was expecting when I checked my mail with my cellphone was to stumble onto this. No, it's not that this is bad... It's just that... Well. It's not everyday you get a full length comment like this.

You've got my head exploding in front of my cellphone, do you know that? XD

Anyhow. I never really thought that, from the beginning of me writing on LJ, I would be receiving such amazing comments - be it encouraging or the opposite. But these comments have become one of my reasons why I keep on writing now, just a plain, simple "I like it" was very nice to read. It lets me know that people pay attention, and as a writer, you should know what that feels like. My readers are my life, and their comments are my air to breathe.

To know that I've inspired some people (yeah well, you're not the first to have told me that...) to write was amazing, because well... I've always thought of myself as one writer amongst many others, and I don't write half as good as most of them. Personally I am a low-self-esteemed girl. Hahah~ But when people told me that they had started doing things because of me, it gave me the worth that I was looking for. And it's the most precious thing I've figured out, so far...

All of my fics are inspired from real life, although, SADLY I don't know Gazette-boys personally. But if I'd known them, I won't be writing fics about them, ne?

Like Filth in the Beauty and its sequel, Yomenai Kotoba, well... It had come from a section of my life where I can't say I would be proud of myself. I cheated on my BF with someone else, and in the end it was just to make me realize just how stupid of me because I lost both of them. Basically it's the treachery theme that I was just trying to depict in the story, but it turned out that I've put myself in it a bit too much *bitter laughs*

But no, I don't recommend cheating on anyone you love, although I write about it and make it sound okay. It's not okay. And if I were Uruha in Filth, I'd claim myself not guilty for hurting Ruki because when Ruki cheated on me it was darn painful.

So that was just about those two titles. But for most of my fics I like to include real-life facts in it, just because I want to. Hahah~ Like the boys' personalities, I don't really change them too much, title by title, and in Filth & Yomenai they were probably the most 'real' that they could be, in my head. It's amazing, the things you learn from magazines, and so that's how I know the boys.

Ah well... One weakness of mine that I just have to admit, I wrote about the GazettE way too much and I haven't had time to explore some other characters. Well, outside LJ I've been working on other bands, but I just haven't had time to come out with a decent enough fic to post here. It's just sad that I'm limiting my abilities to one band only.

The next bad thing about me is that I insist not to have a beta. I've had betas, twice. And the way I worked back then was just... I don't know. I guess I'm way too compelled on working alone and even though I'm a cripple when it comes to grammars and structures and stuffs like that, I always thought "Ah well, at least the readers understand me." It's a selfish thought, I know, but to think of being limited to those rules, I just can't deal with it. I guess I'm gonna be a selfish writer in the future... Hahah~

About Aoi in my fics. Well. For anyone who doesn't like Gazette would've easily decided that he's my favorite *laughs* I do tend to make him sound so dark and sexy and all that in most of my stories because that's just how he looks like, through my eyes. If I had a BF like Aoi I'd lock him in my room and I won't let no living being's eye to have a look at him. Oh yeah... Evil me!

Okay, just like you, I'm making this long and unbearable *laughs*

Because simply, I love you. I love you soooo much to have spared your time and written this comment(s) and posted it. If you'd like to know, I copied your comment and saved it in Word, just so I can re-read it at times. It'll be useful when I need some boost when my Muse decides to walk out on me.

And please do add.
I'm honoured if you'd be my friend. Not as a fan, as you've mentioned, but a friend. Because I love you already, you got that?? XD

Oh well. It seems that I can't make it as long as yours, but there you go... I'll post again if I feel like I've missed something. XDD

Thank you so much. Really.

Hai~ Just give me a moment so I know where to start… First of all, I'm so happy having you on my friendslist *admires her friendslist* Your reply had got me all jumpy and my face is still cracking from a happy, big smile *holds the corners of her mouth because they keep creeping up to her ears* XD

I'm really glad your head's still on your shoulders XD

But I'm really flattered, too. And just like you, I'm always thankful for the comments my readers leave and I know how important it becomes over time to have the support of the readers, just like you said, it is the air an author breathes. I also know how much comments can brighten up one's day, so I try to mention as many topics as possible to give the author a good feeling about his/her work. I'm glad I could achieve that with my monster-thingy xD

Hai, I never doubted that I'm not the only one your fics have inspired to start writing on one's own. Your way to write is simply too good and I'm glad you finally are getting the praise you definitely deserve.

As for the Filth in the beauty and it's sequel… I already assumed there was a lot of reality hidden behind it and although you are right, cheating on someone is really not a thing one should be doing but the way you portrayed it in your fic simply can't leave one being mad at Ruki and Aoi for doing that. That was exactly the point which amazed me the most because although I knew it was actually Ruki and Aoi who'd been wrong I couldn't bring myself up to be on Uruha's side… Hard to explain…

See, this is an amazing point about your writing style as well. Normally, I'm never having troubles expressing myself but when it comes to the feelings your stories stir in me, I kinda have it hard to explain what I mean ^^"

Weakness? You gotta be kidding XD For me, it's the best thing ever that your fanfic-list consists of only GazettE-Fanfictions *lol* Your imagination still deserves an award *lacks award again* Personally, I wouldn't mind if you just continued writing gaze-fics but you have a point, as a writer you always kinda want to have a challenge but I'm sure no matter what band and topic – if you are the one writing a fic it's always gonna be gorgeous.

About the beta thing… I totally understand you. I never had a beta myself, for my part I'm just working my chapters through few times and when I re-read them after some time even after I posted, I correct a mistake then and there. Guess I'm a selfish writer, too ^^" And in your case… to be honest, grammar and spelling really is incidental when reading your fics, this is simply not a thing one notices because your stories captivate one far too much for that ^_^

And know what… I'll let you have Aoi all to yourself XDDD And that really means something 'cause normally I would just grab the man and hide him away from everyone *g* I love him, his personality and his guitar skills and thanks to your fictions I can now enjoy the images of how he possibly is in real life *lol* Just have to compliment you again about this amazing character-description skill of yours ^-^

>/////////< You seriously would be glomped to a pulp right now if you were somewhere near me! Because reading those last lines of your reply got me like… stunned for about ten minutes ^^ I'm really overjoyed I could make you happy with my comment, that really is the best thing my comment could have achieved.

And about the Word-thing *is still flushed and flattered* You make me go all jumpy again XD *bounces and keeps smiling* And well, I got your stories saved as well because I just have to re-read them from time to time… Especially when I need something to save my day… Your stories never fail to make me happy and lighten up my mood ^-^ Thank you so very much for that.

And like I said above… I'm endlessly happy to have you as a friend, a friend I can look up to. You can't imagine how much it means to me. Hai~, I'm about to get sappy right now but really, thank you so very much. Love your stories, love your imagination and love you, especially now that I know you not only have a great way to write but also a great personality.

GodS and I spotted the new chapter of Yomenai Kotoba (YAY!) So the first thing I'll do now is read it (\^_^/)

*hugs you breathless before rushing off* xD

(Okay, on to part two ^^")

It's amazing how you manage to turn words into pictures, you know^^ And no matter how sad the situation is you write about; you always manage to give it kind of a smooth, gentle touch, always putting so many feelings in it *sighs dreamily* Best example would be "Taion". I mean it's really a heavy topic you and your friend bring up there but still you manage to keep it soft and fluffy in some way^^

I just love the way you describe Aoi, this smooth, mysterious, slightly sly and overly sexy aura of his *~* Makes me wanna steal him away *lol* I think you could turn everyone into an Aoi-fangirl with your fics XD Me too if I wasn't one already *lol* Especially in "Under the mistletoe" *-* I liked that reaaaaly much, Aoi teasing poor Ruki-chan but it was so cute... I don't know how but you are always making Ruki damn cute XD Even if he's mad he's always adorable. I felt pity for that red teddy bear he had been clenching so hard...*lol*

Not to mention the "Black and White" story. I loved the idea how you portrayed Aoi there and once again, it was suiting him in every way possible. Thanks to those amazing descriptions you managed to bring there, it just made me melt into a happy puddle XD I was really glad I found that fic, because it was simply stunning. But oh well, every story I read from you so far was gorgeous ^-^

Oh, and I love the fact you chose present tense for some of your stories because usually past tense is the most common. But like always, it had fit perfectly, just like everything in your fics do^^

It's great you use the language in such a bright variety. (I love Ruki cussing XD It suits him so really much.) It also helps me improve my English because I really am getting to know some adjectives I never heard before and am now using on a normal basis, "plush" and "pliable" are still my favourites *rofl*

You even managed to bring a person from the "outside" (you know, random characters like staff members or the Manager or even doctors ^-^) into some situations and still keep it entertaining, interesting and cute xD

Your way of bringing this little, funny sentences and moments into the stories is amazing as well. It's serious but at the same time, it makes you turn into a giggly puddle xD *thinking of under the mistletoe* Great!

Actually I'm reading some fics for the third time already and every time I start I just can't stop until I reached the last word of the last chapter ^^" Love it *~* Your imagination really deserves an award^^ *lackes an award* *gives alotta cookies instead*

I hope I'm not striking you dead with this review XD But I'm really enthralled with your stories and you definitely deserve the praise because it's a hell of a good job you've done with your fics. Just keep it up, ne? I'll be looking forward to the next updates and from now on you'll have my little support in form of a review^^ That would be if I will manage to actually post this one <.<" I'm such a chicken sometimes XD But oh well, it's always hard to approach people one admire ^-^ And I really admire you, your fics never fail to make my day ^_^ Every new update makes me go all jumpy *lol*

Hn, now I read it over a hundredth times already and hope I didn't miss any important point. It really is hard to sort one's thoughts because when thinking of your fics there are so many good and positive things that come to my mind I don't know where to start XD I hope I did manage to structure this review a bit and it didn't seem just like some incoherent babbling *lol*

Fact is, I love your fics, your ideas, your writing style and your amazing ability to describe feelings and persons so well.

Hm, one little request at the end^^ May I ad you as I friend? That would be really, like, an honour for me ^-^

Thank you so very much for sharing your work, I'm so happy I stumbled across your fic and got a chance to read more of them. *huggles you tightly*

THANKS! *sneaks back out*

I've heard that your fics are awesome, and I just finished Under the Mistletoe and loved it, I can't wait to read the rest of your stuff!!!

omg, i have read all of ur fics now, n i have to say u r the best fanfic writer ever!!! u shud b so proud that ur writing is so good even though your first language isnt english!

ruki x reita is my favourite pairing *glomps ruki* so i absolutely LOVED fanfic, gift and night out!

but my favourite has to actually b filth in the beauty!it was so smutty yet soooo emotional!it made me cry!!please keep writing more!
ive given up an entire week to read your fanfics, ive even been in shit at college becasue i havent been doing my work!!XD
xxxx

..is it possible for you to fix the chapter 19 link of "Filth in the Beauty"?
everytime I click on it, it takes me to chapter 18.
thank you in advanced :)
and I love your fics ^-^

Fixed.
Thx for the notice :)

you know what? i love your works,,, they're great...!!!

you're great,,, you can make intense fic, fluff, the melting heart one, the sad one, or even the stupid one~~~

i really would love to know where did you find all those ideas??? i wonder,,,

you can also make different pairings, and i still love it,,, well, sometimes some particular pairing bored me,,but not with yours,,,that's why i love your works

i know i haven't commented properly to your entry,,,so i make my comment here,,, is that okay???

umm,,, what should i say next,,, your fics are great and i'm speechless on how to find the right words to describe it ^^;

the point is... i love your works... that's it.

okay,,, i blab too m much, so i think i need to stop now,,,

anyway,,,keep up your good work \^0^/

oh,,,and,,, i add you, if that's okay?

I'm so late... But yes, thank you for reading and liking my works....

And of course it's okay if you add me :D

I freakin Love you. D:
I've been reading your fics since Filth was almost done and Yom was starting. ^____^
I absolutely love AoixRuki pairings, and you're one of hte only people who write them. >.< I've been so busy lately, but i'm planning to read YK and everything else AxR related. <3

P.S: My boyfriends nick name is Aki-Chuu. xDD
His middle name is Akira. x;

Whaaat??? really? XDDD
Now it's cute that my name resembles your boyfriend's...

And thank you! I'm really happy you liked my fics...
Enjoy reading~! :D

Thank! :D

Hehe, I read this other AoixRuki story a couple days ago and I was like; "OMG! Aki should soo make a story like this. ^______^"
It's called Metempsychosis and it's by kenxkenlove, i think. :P

Instead of it being about the band and stuff, it's like. a whole different world. :D!

Keep up the good work! >.